Confidence, Resolutions, & New Changes

New year, new you. 

Yeah, this might sound cliché because you're still the same you, but different, changed. Let's make this year, and every year to come, the year where you inch your way to your dream life and dream you. What have you always wanted to be like? What have you always wanted? Do you imagine yourself with a thinner frame? New sense of fashion? New romance? More money?

I can't find the answers for you even if I wanted to, which, admittedly, I probably don't because, well, I have my own life and you have yours. If finding the answers involves paying someone--a therapist, a mountebank, someone--so be it, so long as you find the answers, something you may not know that you were looking for.

Find confidence by putting in effort into making progress and maintaining goals, confidence in your abilities (that's to say, what YOU KNOW you're capable of doing).

From A Cinderella Story | Source: Pinterest

Sometimes you just have to make a change or decision, whether required by, say, doctor's orders, or otherwise. Do what's best for you, but also keep in mind that you should do what you want. They may seem contrary, but I'm sure you can find a healthy balance somehow. I'm sure it also sounds easier said than done and I don't claim to know your circumstances but I know that something can be done in any situation that deserves more than passivity. So consider your options, consider what you can do and what you can't. Again, you'll find somewhere in between. 

Find your strength to make said changes and incorpate these changes each day and don't stop. You'll find that, after much practice, these tedious tasks and changes become much easier to handle and, in fact, much more perfunctory and habitual. 

And although I'm no baseball or softball buff, "never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game". Life is no game, but similar to the quote, don't let the negatives in your life, the forces that bring you down and prevent you from making changes, keep you from making these changes. 

Best wishes, Nurds.

Cordially,

Joss Lila Glenn


P.S. I haven't posted within the past few weeks because I started school again for winter quarter. I have a job, five classes, multiple extracurriculars, and I'm just trying to manage it all. All on top of the fact that I've been making changes here and there on the blog itself.

Wear the Cape: Being Bold!

Happy Friday Nurds!

To put a little flare this week than I usually do (what do I usually do?), I put a capital letter in "Nurds" for really no particular reason at all than to be a little more distinct. Ironic 'cause making the word, "Nurd" is bold in itself. Making this blog, I decided that I wanted to identify as the exterior mold of clay--conforming and always malleable, but distinct despite all of the mold that encompasses me. Nurd defines me pretty well: a nurd with flare or geek chic if you will.

4 ores on chimes = the perf hair chandelier

Have you had that moment as a seven-year-old when you ask your parents to wear your Cinderella dress to school or you simply show them, wherein the laugh and give you every reason in the book, pulling the "no" card, as parents do? Or for our male audiences here, have you wanted to wear the Spiderman or Batman costume out and about and in public? 

I woke up from my nap on a long Thursday from school, which is almost unfathomable to take naps when homework is always nailing you in the shin, and I mean ALWAYS, and read my feed from Elle and realize that it's that time of year for New York Fashion Week (Excited? Yeah, I thought so.). I read several articles, one including Leona Lewis' new album, which she released on her own without a recording company to support her. Talk about Badass! Another article vaguely describes the hype of NYFW and then BOOM! Seeing the models on the runway inspired me to wear whatever the hell I want today! 

Living in Southern California doesn't call for boots and winter pajama pants, so wearing so doesn't only seem uncomfortable in the recently 104-degree weather, but I decided to give this a shot! I like to classify myself as bold and daring, which might give people the impression upon hearing "bold" and "daring" that I'm an overconfident disaster at hand. Let's just say, I would like "bold" and "daring" to define me any day. I wouldn't ever want to think of myself as overconfident because what's there to preen about? I'm as average as the next person, with more or less advantage in my life than others, but I'm not stellar. And disaster? I may identify as bold and daring, but I'm still entirely insecure, too! Insecurity and confidence go hand-in-hand. You can't be confident without being insecure, because boldness fosters that extra push. So Disaster, I have my life together and know exactly where I'm going in life! 

To be quite honest, I was a little hesitant because my AP Calc professor, who I've had for nearly four years, is quite judgmental that he's not even subtle when he criticizes me. He does so to the point where he's "discreetly" staring at me, while I'm trying to evaluate math problems that nearly no one needs in their lives. Fun, huh? I get an A on an impossible quiz to pass and have done considerably well these last three years that he's known me as a student and he decides to make me feel like a targeted and insecure person in a masquerade? I wouldn't take it! So I nonchalantly walked into his class, ready for a lecture, wherein there was some staring and the teeth-gritting that he does, but I was confident to wear the cape because I wanted to wear it. Wearing this cape actually brought some encouragement and compliments that staring and teeth-gritting don't seem to have the power to overcome. 

To not stray from the whole Cinderella and Spiderman concept,  I realize that we should just let kids where what they want to wear. I mean telling them not to wearing an attention-grabbing and clearly distinct costume (without much reason, I might add) gives them to impression not to stand out. Like, what's wrong with  standing out? But that's how kids think, making them grow up caring about peoples' judgment without marching to their own people a little once in a while. We've grown like that, so a little call to action to us future parents out there: little the kid wear their damn costume! Okay! They'll learn from their own mistakes, so don't make them feel like another ball of clay, when they're still part of the same mold. And who knows, they might come home tired from entertaining people with "their" powers, right before Halloween, which means more candy for yourself than you give to others! Score!

Let's be Nurds together! Shall we?

~Joss

And what better way to celebrate boldness than KT Tunstall's "Fade Like a Shadow" to add color to this glorious Friday!

PS: My attire was actually unbearable to wear in the 100-degree weather, but hey, lesson learned. 

PSS: Nah, lesson NOT learned! I'll totes do this again and continue to die in unbearable heat! Challenge accepted ; )

PSS: Those who've passed will not be forgotten! God Bless! I hope Heaven is all I hope it is, and more!

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Followers!

I'm going to be completely honest, virtually nobody is reading this, and yeah, I'm pretty sure of that! In case someone out there is actually reading this, I'm Joss.

Now that we have been officially acquainted, I wanted to add that although it is amazing to know that someone not limited to your select group of friends is listening to you (cuz trust me, that seems spectacular) it doesn't matter who or how many people are following you. I totally get it, so-and-so has 11,018 followers and that just seems so perfectly extreme, right, to know that so-and-so is so popular? I'm the type of person to deny being popular. But yeah, I had a followers thingy for people to follow this blog and was ashamed to find that only 6 people or less were listening to what I had to say. I had been longing for a "bigger crowd", not just 6 people! You can laugh now. I am, right now!

*HaHaHaH...(choke)*

I just considered like less than an hour ago that the number of followers should absolutely not make me feel shameful or lousy, that's just Mr. Negative hoping to ruin me! One person, none, or a hundred are fine with me, seriously! I want anyone reading my blog to have a pleasurable time, leave a message, and I'll respond, cuz I truly wanna blog like for the same reasons that you want to read your favorite magazine.

Blogging, or just writing in general is calming and inspiring to me. Writing just has so many, uhhh, obscure (yeah, I'll use this word) aspects to it. Everything changes, everywhere, every second, and we can never change our pasts, so that right there, is the perfect layout to blog just about whatever, and right whatever! Besides writing and blogging, it try to squeeze in a bit of time to just read. I desperately need to catch up  on my reading, because, like musical artists/bands, there is just so much to read ranging from a manuscript (which I enjoy reading until I get to the instructions), recipes, menus, playwrights, blog or social media posts, movie summary, it's (ahh *I need a breather*) just endless!

Personally, I am an aspiring writer, journalist, and graphic designer. In case you are new to this blog, I try to incorporate my own artwork via Photoshop or Picmonkey on here, because it's fun to explore art and writing. If your daring, try painting a mural or writing a movie script. It's not easy, but I am ready for just about any constructive criticism, because the positive thing I find about constructive criticism is that it is in, and of itself, supposed to you better!

On heel to my "followers" synopsis, I just feel that it is not necessary to see the number of people following, rather I would just love to read you input/comments to make my day! All of this is just a result of me taking a turn in my confidence. I have gradually become more spontaneous, and you can probably tell from the language of my very first blog post! With confidence, I just want to know that there is a positive to every negative and if you can't find one, look harder through that dark haystack, because you'll find it eventually?

...and just cuz every word deserves a picture

Fall Flat For March

Mint March Madness is coming up. And if you don't know what a mint is, or madness here's a hint:

He likes making my fave ice cream...

So basically mint madness, is the month to celebrate loners  (face it --YOU'VE 

BEEN DUMPED)

from Valentine's Day  to redeem their single-ness by embracing

all the bitter sweet sensations in their life.

--I know, right?

Check out the jump break for a special Mint Madness thing I kinda made--kinda =D (Oh wait that's too happy XD)