MY COMING OUT STORY | LGBTQ+ Talks

Okay, this is going to be a dense subject post; I'm just going to start off by saying that. 

TRIGGER WARNING!! 

I do discuss suicide, eating disorder, and several other subjects that you may not be comfortable reading. I want to provide a safe space to you all, but I don't want to leave anything unsaid or sugarcoat anything because this is my reality as a transgender woman and my story as a human being. But first, in order to establish a well-grounded safe space, I need you to trust me, know who I am, what I've gone through, what I am all about and hopefully you can relate, but hopefully you may never have to see anyone go through anything like I have or experience any of this yourself. I will acknowledge that I have faired in better conditions than most trans-women and trans people in general and I am fortunate for not only that but also the fact that I have survived and that I pass, while many of my trans fellows may not. 

Additionally, I have never come out, but I also come out almost on a daily basis to strangers that I meet around campus. Though I did not feel that it was necessary to reveal to my family about my transgender identity and hopefully the future generations will follow. I mean, most people don't have to come out as cisgender or straight, so I feel I didn't have to reveal that I'm transgender.

Well, here we go. 

Newfound Love in an Art

HI friends!

I came home not more than an hour ago from a rendition of the acclaimed Les Miserables, in which I am involved in the crew, and as I watched and thoroughly caught the expressions, gesticulations, and scenery of the play, a flickering light bulb gave way. It wasn't until my friend Juliet, who I've known since kindergarten, performed. Although not a major character, she enthusiastically portrayed that of a background personality. You couldn't miss, I guarantee, with her curly fry long hair!

It was then that the flash bulb tweaked onward that I realized how much Theater is an art. Unfortunately, I mean as a long time friend, I hadn't known of her interest in such an art.

Not only the acting, but the lighting, fixtures, timing, and all of the elements, small and big that comprise a whole production define art; it truly is amazing!

To be completely honest, I love Les Mis, but the local high school production was purely boring. I know, giving many compliments is very misleading, but hear me out! The production was directed by the fantastic Brian Johnson, who has directed nearly 50 productions, and even written his own; by that, he added lyrics (as this was a TOTAL musical--sound boring?), which in itself is an art as I know that words convey an expression that not only connects one but two and three until a room of interconnected and common people relate. This expression is seen in each of the characters as they portray and connect the lyrics to their roles! Now of course no one person is perfect, and to be quite frank, this play was so imperfect that I fell asleep after the intermission! It is very easy to fall asleep, especially after an extremely busy day, but it takes  A LOT to crash after such a great performance! This "lot" was the, which by the way, was predominantly extraordinary, but also extraordinarily paced. In fact, so paced that it was hard to follow what was happening. Thus, an instant crash!

As an introvert who is always busy, I find myself immersed in my own little world, in which I talk with myself endlessly, finishing arguments that weren't done, and portraying strong feminine characters with my own lines! I not only like being backstage, but would also like to experiment with lighting, sound, prop fixation, and possibly my own entire screenplay on Broadway.